It’s not really, it’s just that the book is finally finished, and I have to say goodbye to all my characters. Some I have loved, I can’t really say why, but I did. Lisa, for example, I loved writing about her. Some I have modelled on people I love – Evylin, for example. Of course, these people don’t know this, and why should they? My love for someone never equals reality. Perhaps that’s why I am alone. Couldn’t find anyone else who sees the world like I do – that or I am just unbearable after a while. (Smile)
But back to the book.
I wonder if other authors have the same problem: I can basically remember the story’s plot, and if you were to ask me about a character, I could answer it, with some level of certainty, but if you were to quote me, I’d be totally lost. Which is surprising, as I have lived the story intensely, and each chapter has left me drained. I have tried to cross-reference everything I remember as being researched, and everything I know is not mine. I deliberately added references to cult films and books because, hopefully, one day in the future, these films will, one day, reflect a golden era of cinematography.
And, although the book bears the subtitle, I am GoD, it is not about religion. I do make a lot of religious innuendoes, but none are designed to be derogatory. I envy anyone who keeps their faith. There is a very good chance that I have become an atheist simply because the truth of there being a God would leave me damned. But that’s another story.
Some parts of the book are taken directly from my own life, but most of it is pure fantasy. Indirectly, I congratulate myself on having written a book about the future, with all the action taking place in the past. It certainly stopped me from having to permanently imagine what the future is like.
I do believe, however, that robots will one day be restricted in their movement – due to rogue issues – and we will eventually be able to connect to the internet directly. AI exists to serve. My example is this…
If I don’t ask Alexa anything, it doesn’t do anything. Simple. (Oh, it listens! – yes, because someone told it to) If I ask someone to do something LOL… I can only hope they will.
But enough of that, I am not sure what I will do now that the book is finished. I tell myself there is the promotion and lots of other things, but George, Evylin, Jessie, and Spoiler are all now out of my life. All the wonderful, fun characters that I saw so vividly inside my mind are gone. I can only hope that, unlike Stieg Larsson (God rest his soul – author of the Girl with the Dragon Tattoo series), I might get to see my work appreciated.
Rather egotistic of me, I know, but still … imagine sitting in a theatre and seeing your characters come alive. All your years of work, captured in a tremendous two-hour movie. It must be amazing.
I guess this ability to dream, even in the darkest night, has stopped me from giving up, from putting my keyboard to rest.
So, it’s time to say goodbye. Ladies first.
Goodbye Jessie – at times you reminded me of how I see my own daughter. LOL. Children are never like their parents’ image them to be.
Goodbye, Evylin – your opening scene doesn’t capture the true beauty of my own Beatrice. But I have tried to be loyal to your character.
Goodbye, Debbie and Lisa. Debbie reminds me of my young teenage years and a crush I had on the most beautiful hippy I’ve ever met, and Lisa, well, I guess I just like crazy girls.
Now to the guys:
George, the hero of the book, is not a natural hero, and at times it has been difficult to keep this up. It was always so tempting to make him a kind of Superman. But that is not who he is.
Spoiler, my villain, but not really a villain, he’s just someone who can’t really tolerate idiots. So, yes, he’s arrogant and rich, but not manipulative.
They are my friends – LOL. I look forward to the day someone brings them to life. Once, I dreamt about this moment, a long time ago. Sadly, in the dream, I was so old my daughter had to tell me, ‘Look, your film is about to begin.’
Better late than never, I suppose. Merry Christmas, everyone.
